Humbling

There are times, when we all get wrapped up in ourselves.  There are times when we get frustrated cause nothing seems to go right.  The effort we put in doesn't pay off.  The time and pain we slave away gives a poor return.  The future as we perceive seems really bleak, and more.

For me, jobs and exams have been crushing my spirit since school started.  Well not exams, but jobs have.  I think... I just feel so much pressure on my shoulders.  And in the end I begin to become obsessed with this cycle of me, me, me.  I mean who doesn't, as times get tough isn't the first person we start to think about, ourselves?  Why am I suffering?  What can I do?  Why does it seem so hopeless?

But then God does something.  Of course we all know to keep things in perspective, but do we?  We have friends that kindly remind us, but sometimes we want to wallow in our self-pity.  We want to feel bad.  We want the world to know that we are suffering so that they take pity on us.  So that we get some attention and feel better.

But like I said God does something.  He does something big.  He humbles us.  He reminds us of life.  We make flippant remarks about how I wish such and such happens.  I hate life.  I would rather go through x, y, z, instead of what I'm going through now.  Why can't life be easier?  We don't cherish life.  We don't cherish His grace.  We want and desire what we think is good for ourselves, we become our own idols.

This humbling process can be a verse, a song, words from a friend, or even just hearing about certain events.  The world is a fragile place.  Our bodies are not impervious, even if we think so because we are young.  We are people in desperate need of God, and many of us know that but we ignore it.

Tonight, I was reminded.  And I sit here... in contemplation, in prayer, in reflection, and just trying to let go and see God in His glory, in His wisdom, in His awesomeness.

Jesus is the beginning and end.  God is a jealous God.  God will use us for His glory.  He alone deserves all the glory.  These are words we have said, but it's so easy to forget it.

Truly I am a sinful being, in need of grace.  And God gives it.  Thanks be to God.

Lord, I am reminded of your greatness.  Lord, I hear you, and I feel you.  My heart once again moves from myself but to You, and the world that is in need of You.  Forgive me Lord, for I know I will still stress.  It is a struggle for me, but let me not put my foolish desires ahead of the people that need you.  God... be with my brothers and sisters that are suffering.  Bring healing.  For only you can do these things.  We, humans, foolishly believe it is in our power, but God it only you.  Let me let go all for You.  In Jesus name, Amen.