An Attack on Cynicism

Have you ever justified cynicism by calling it being practical? Or any other number of things? I mean it's easy right? I always fall into it, to the point where I would identify myself as cynical. I mean at it's base is a lack of trust. An assumption and we all know assume means (just spell it out and say me instead of spelling out m, e).

This past Sunday at Trinity, the pastor spoke on cynicism. Calling it a way of covering up and justifying our selfishness. It forms out of our disappointments and then corrupts our mind state. How does it corrupt? Quite simply you look at everything in a terrible framework. But his main question which mindset will dominate the eternal kingdom, our cynicism or the glory of God which consumes us?

And I had to write in my journal, "well played sir." Haha. I really justify it so easily in my mind. The word is depraved and terrible, and basically crap. Why? Cause of sin that pervades everything. And yet the mind of Christ declares Christ's victory. It clings to the Cross, celebrating, sharing. Not a mind of why try here, why take that extra effort cause I know it will fail. Instead a mind of pure trust, a childhood state. That's how you look outside and say it's beautiful. Take today for example, it was so freaking cold. But apart from the cold, it was a clear, sunny, beautiful day. Sigh, just a reminder of how corrupt my mind is.

Oh cynicism, you are so comfortable and enthralling. Much like self-pity and self-loathing. Even disliking someone or hating someone is easy, comfortable, justifiable. But God calls for more than that, to look beyond that. Crazy talk.

Randomness, I finished Boy Meets Girl pretty quickly. Very slow internet while away with fam equals good reading time. Ironically... it served two things. Reminded me how books are better than blogs. (I just them more.) The second thing? A lot of healing. A lot of resolutions. A lot of perspective. And lots of cute/heartbreaking stories. But ya, I'm reviving that old plan of reading more. Not gonna force it. I think letting it flow works for me better, but as long as the effort is made, progress will occur.

Got lots of negativity in my soul, but I've got a God greater than that. More lovely than that. Who's worth striving for change. Eff me guys haha. Like in the most light-hearted way. Not a cynical laugh but a laugh of relief. I'm me that's all there is to it. Thanks be to God.

Edit
Thank God for space heaters. I keep my apt sorta cold and it's saving my life. Buy one and turn down your heat to save some moneys, cause you don't use it all the time, and it's cheaper than heating an entire apt as opposed to a room.