Snow

I had another emo post that I wrote out. But... just didn't want to post it. Not today.

One thing I hope never changes in me, my love of snow. I love it. If I'm in a bad mood, I can get stand in the snow, and I'm content. I lay in it, and I stare at the sky. My thoughts cease, and I'm at peace. Peace?

Peace? Why at peace? Cause it's freaking beautiful. I love it. The world gets silent as people tend to go indoors. Cars stop driving. And I can just hear silence. If you don't know what I mean by that sentence, you don't appreciate silence. Not a bad thing, but try to one day.

I love it man. If I had a real fireplace, I would curl up near it and watch the snow fall. With my family and a dog. Haha. A dog that would lounge near me, as I petted it. But the dog probably won't happen. Hopefully the family will.

Queue another digression into emo whining. Haha. So dumb. It's beautiful, and I will appreciate it. None of this stupid crap.

Funny thing: I think God can be pretty funny. I had a dream last night, that just cut me to the core. And half awake, I just cried out to God. That half awake delirium. And I as I drifted back to sleep, I had a much funnier dream. I was eating with people, and JC (younger) wanted to pray for me. And he did that whole rock his body as he prays, which I do as well. But since I was eating, it's like I had utensils hanging from my mouth as we moved haha. In my mind it's funny, and in the dream it was hilarious.

Also had a good time listening to old school Tim Be Told. Oh man that was my college jam. Funny thing is his questions about God in those songs that used to hit me so hard, aren't that present anymore. I'm fully confident God is real and there. But all the emotional stuff of his old songs, it most definitely still resonates haha.

More good things to share/reflections to come in future posts, as I had originally planned.

PRAYER REQUEST:
I will be seeing my bioligical father this Sunday (weather permitting). It's been 4.5-5 years since I last saw. Maybe 4 since I even talked to him via phone? Pray for the right attitude. To be full of grace and love. But really, just pray that he knows Jesus. If our relationship never develops, I can live with it to be honest. I'd be sad of course, but if he never knew Jesus, I guess that concerns me more. Cause I mean in reality, Jesus will bring about greater changes in him and myself than I ever could hope