Sometimes, you really just want to know that someone cares... but the dumb part is that God cares. God is there. And yet sometimes.. that other person is just crucial. At least it has been for me, and I want to be able to do that for others. But the most important thing is the Spirit and prayer. Something I forgot all too often.
Sometimes you want a significant other hahahahahaha, but all too often, I'm reminded I just need God. I wonder what the balance is between healthy relationships with others and with solely depending on God. Granted... I like harsh and rigid separations too much, but Christianity is a lot of gray/where is your heart. And that's one of the most freaking hard questions in the world cause you think you might know, and then you realize you were way off. Or maybe you think you don't know, but the reality is... you do know. Sigh... dumbness.
But going back to above... as crappy as I am. As selfish as I am. As dumb as I am. As poorly as I show it. As poorly as I word it (if I even do, cause I normally don't even bother to show it, or I try to hide it). I really care about a lot of things and people... sigh. Emotional Mark, but not Emo. At least not now, and hopefully never again.
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