Little Lights Part 1

Where to begin... I know from Day 1.

So... we had to split cars because people had to drop their cars off, and I was the only who could drive up to DC from UVA, but ya it worked out cause we met up with Tech and they helped drive people.

So after a good but tiring Spring Retreat, we drove up. Ate at A and T. There's a brief fb video. And ya fast forward and the first day ends at the end of Monday. It hit me... one thing it was my birthday. A date to mark a sinner living another full year in this world. Sadness. And we didn't do anything, but it's better that way. Reminder that God is all I need. Even today I'm fighting to remind myself it's all about God. And still God is good and redeems terrible people like me. Honestly, I was somewhat grumpy cause I was tired, and something I really wanted to do on this trip was street evangelism and prayer walks after each day, but we didn't. Honestly, it was for the better though. I'm trying to summarize from my journal entries that I wrote during that week, so sorry if it the post is disconnected.

But ya, this year we stayed in the apt building that LL owns cause they had two vacancies. It was nice, they were partially furnished and meant better sleeping for the most part. I ended up sleeping in this side room that was cold for most of the trip cause it was the quietest and no one wanted to sleep there, but it was more uncomfortable than other places. No biggie though. And to any who are wondering they had to open apt so girls were in one and guys the other. Also no internet there except briefly when I got to use it for hw.

This trip was full of... nostalgia and sadness to be honest. It probably shall be my last one, at least with a UVA and Tech team. God... has worked so powerfully through LL over the past 3-4 years, and honestly... even as I think about it, it serves as a powerful testimony and reminder of God's power for me personally. LL has a green clean team, aka landscapers formed from adults that reside in Potomac Gardens to give them a job. And they got this huge contract to redo part of Potomac Gardens and make it prettier... so sick. I dunno if you understand how awesome this is... but it's incredible. LL has Bible studies with the adults, parent mentoring classes, and hired more staff from Potomac Gardens. It's just beautiful. And there's even hints of more growth, but I'm not allowed to share it. Honestly... man. God using faithful people right there.

Also I saw some kids at middle school today who I remember in elementary school, and I was like wow. :) God is good. Granted they forgot me... but that's expected at this point. No one remembers me... I was surprised Mary and Linda remembered me finally... haha. No bitterness though. Honestly.

"I'm reminded of the power of the Holy Spirit. Truly it is the power of the Holy spirit that must be at work, and that is at work. I just wish... I could serve longer. But why... cause it keeps me from thinking about other things? Cause it helps me love God more? ya... but I feel like there's a lot of selfishness in it that I really need to let go of. But God willing it shall. I feel more dependent on God the past couple days, but I want it to be sustained and expressed in a meaningful way."

Just a quote after the first day to express some of my thoughts.

I shall post more about what made this trip different tomorrow night haha. I'm giddy (stupidly so) cause I'm just remembering how good God was on this trip... and I'm like antsy. Need to transfer that energy to prayer though. Lots of things to pray for... so many. Honestly... part of me just wants to staff at LL for a year. But ya... can't tell if I hate the thought of working for a private company... or I'm called to ministry earlier than I thought... Sorry this post is all over the place. I'm tired and a lot of work to do still... sigh. But ya... pray for LL.

Also, Gowe's cd is sick. If you don't mind spending some money to support a small artist you should listen to some of his songs on youtube, and if you like it buy his album.