Key West Day 2

Today was a chill day.

Had the best sushi I've ever had though for lunch. Best meal here so far. Everything is overpriced, but this came closest to fulfilling the price. Had the coolest way of serving the sashimi, where it was in a cup with a lighted cube, and it was placed in another cup that had dry ice it. So cool... haha. And so good.

On the other hand... not the brightest day ever. Still lots of thinking. I realized... part of me disappeared. The part of me that was happy and acted in a straightforward fashion. Less thinking and planning, enjoying life, more child-like. Now I feel like it only shows up when I play sports. No I'm not bi-polar... or am I? jkjk. But it's been on my mind..
Gowe- First Flight
"my self esteem is gone and i've been trying to relive it 
if you see it - could you give it, if its hurt - could you kiss it
cause i never gave it time - to tell it it could do it
or to pat it on the back when it came back to me shattered"

These lyrics click with how I've been thinking/feeling. All in all, it's a really good song though. Recommend you listen to it.

But ya... not trying to be a downer or anything, just been on my mind. Actually a lot of things flowing through my mind. Ugh...

Am I thinking too much, or am I not thinking enough? Or am I just being stupid? Prob... more of the latter.

There's freedom in Christ. Yes... there definitely is. And life is about learning more of that. Not about what I can do, or what I will do. I just wish... life was easier but who doesn't.

Key West is a beautiful place, but... I wish... I was with my wife... hahahahhaha. If I have one... but ya. Oh well. 

Dang there's so much inside of me that needs to get out or resolved... sigh.

Actually another cool thing that happened today was I got to go to Ernest Hemingway's house. And it was interesting. It's pretty, learned more about an author that I really like, and saw 6 toed cats haha. Apparently writing for him was therapeutic for him, and it's how he coped with his depression and other things. Sad thing, he had four wives cause he kept divorcing... sigh. But ya his life was interesting, read about it if you are bored.

Dude... I'm watching high school musical 2 (with the golf course?) with my brother... and it's making me sad/emotional omg. I'm so out of it hahaha... peace out guys. Supposed to have a busy day tomorrow, so hopefully that will take my mind off of things. And maybe if I just have a day... where I just am alone that will help later on. I'm not even that deep or good at reasoning/thinking... haha what a farce I am.

Actually forgot to post my most recent favorite songs. By Phil Wickham :)
Phil Wickham- My Heaven Song One of... the beautiful songs I've recently found.
Phil Wickham- Sun and Moon My hope... like really my hope.
Phil Wickham- Cielo A beautiful expression of love/adoration/humility/etc.

EDIT:
The Ernest Hemingway house has a beautiful for a wedding. Should anyone be interested.