Life

It's been two days since I graduated... and nothing has changed really. I don't feel any different. I don't feel any better. In fact, I feel weaker. I feel more lost. I feel more... disastisfied with myself. This is due to a plethora of things, but that's life right?

I dunno how I feel these days. I'm super lazy. I mean I'm enjoying myself by having day trips and stuff, but still....

Honestly. I should probably put a more complete post up, but I'm starting to feel super nervous about my interview tomorrow. It's like my last chance... at SNL haha. But I want a job, and I'm open to C'ville. Like when I'm nervous my legs do that bouncing thing, and normally I can stop myself without a problem, but I can't stop...

I'm that nervous. I really want a job, but I need to rest in God more. I need to do so many things. But honestly... it's not about what I do. I feel like it's about what God does and resting in God. And resting in God, loving Him, causes the changes... too often I fall into the trap of religiosity. Regardless... pretty much read everything about the position that I'm applying for that I can, so we'll just see what happens... but still nervous as heck. The company has bad reviews. Not best pay... but honestly I just want the experience and something to survive off. I plan on learning some SQL and SAS and stuff while working, which should make getting the next job easier. But we'll see.... baby steps.