Beautiful

Son Surprises Mom With House for Mother's Day
Aight this video is long. Deal with it. Haha. It's... beautiful, and not in the way where you know it's someone who's sick at editing and writing so they can manipulate you well. It's just beautiful. Honestly... I want to be able to do something like this for my family. I want to give back to them because they went through so much for me. Especially my mom. My mom... went through so much, and then entire time I was struggling and suffering, she would often blame herself saying she wasn't good enough as a mother. And the sad thing is as a child, I would have those times you know. Why couldn't my family be like this person or that person. Why is my family like this etc. But dang... the reality is I wouldn't have it any other way. I wish... I could so something man. Haha. But I looked over my finances and for now it's tight. Paying off rent and security deposit, car stuff. I'm I have a small buffer so it's not that bad. But no where near enough to where I can treat my family to a nice dinner or vacation or something. And you might say oh that's so worldly or something. And you're right.

It is, objectively it is.

But for me, it's giving back to people who slaved away for me. Who showed me love I never deserved. That's why props to this son above.

Also... I've been reading feedly oldest posts first cause I'm so far behind. And I've been reading a lot of posts that came out on Father's Day. Powerful stuff. Only a handful talked about the loving fathers we all hope for. The others talked about the fathers made you hate the term or fear it, or just dislike it. And yet, God's redemptive story plays out there too. Earlier this year, I emailed my dad cause I felt like I should and I told a friend I would. He kept me accountable, so I did it. Albeit, I did it before I was ready. I think... I'm finally ready (and by ready, I mean God has changed my heart) to completely forgive him, and accept him for who he is. And that's the main thing, accept him as he is. I pray others would do that as well haha. But ya... updates probably to come over the next couple months as I solidify plans to meet him. I'm feeling not till August at the earliest maybe later depending on circumstances in my life.

On a different note, Trader Joe's is where it's at my friends. Portions are perfect for a week. And prices are comparable to Kroger, and quality is bit better and the place just feels cooler haha. I still go to Kroger for some things, but most of my lunch is courtesy of Trader Joe's. Many thanks to that place. Also if you're looking for a great way to make your sandwich awesome. Add some spicy humus to it. I thought about this during this past weekend so I tried it. And it's awesome. Hands down best part of my lunch. Toasted bagel with onions, turkey, and that humus. I would add spinach too if you don't mind getting it, and bam perfect sandwich for your meal haha. I'm going to buy a steamer next so I can use it to steam broccoli and substitute that in for carrots. Carrots everyday for a month gets old really fast.