Update?

My life... is rather straightforward these days. Work... exercise, read/chill/watch/whatever. Sleep. Repeat. Weekends, hang out a lot. Get burned out from hanging out with people. Recover while working etc.

Haha. A band that's been clicking with me lately United Pursuit although some songs are just too... hipster. Haven't bought their album yet, but I think I will. Definitely got that folksie element, but some of their lyrics are on point, well to be more specific I really like Will Reagan's songs.

I read a lot of articles today... good ones haha. I think I should take notes on them or something. I feel like I make mental notes, but then I sorta leave it filed away until a trigger causes it to come out. Human mind, you interesting.

I'm happier... the past couple days. Why? Well, I visited City Church and it was on point man. Talked about serving, but something about that church clicked with me so well. Slight GCF nostalgia cause we were in an auditorium haha, wide age range. Seeing old people raise their hands praising God... man. Saw an older guy and his wife, she had a marked up Bible, both sang and praised, followed the sermon, I just... was like man can I be like that one day? Beautiful images there. I'm planning on visiting several more churches in C'ville before I commit. Why? I think... I want to see what other places are like. I didn't do that with GCF. I just committed to GCF, and I don't think I'd change that. I might have visited more, but GCF was where I belonged in college. But ya... churches also fascinating.

I've been burning through my music on my ipod. Revisiting oldies, finding random songs. Today, I listened to some Japanese songs. I really miss Japanese class. I miss hearing it, speaking it, learning it. Time to take some initiative and develop those skills or at least keep them from rotting. The fact that I like it so much though, was like a reminder hey, don't forget your aspirations. Pray, seek, be faithful and see what happens. I'm referring to possible missions there at some point in my life (yes, completely up in the air), but... I really do hope to be in ministry full-time. Who knows when that will be though... Btw I don't have as much money as my previous post might have made it seem like. I realized I somehow mis-calculated some of my necessary expenses, but still it's not a big deal.

Cool update, I have housing for the coming year now. Two roommates, one philosophy phd student and one third transfer. Let the weirdest house ever form together haha. Should be nice though.

Where am I though in my life? I'm... flowing in between healthier reminiscing of the past, and not so healthy, as well as looking towards the future and finding ways to live in the present. Basically... living haha. Been cleaning out my inbox. Went from over 1200 unread, to a little over 200 over the past week. Leggo. :) I'm slowly changing my messiness and everything. My heart still feels like something needs to spill out though, but not sure what. So interesting...

Sorry for being all over the place, but I have something odd to admit. Every morning, I wake up early and get ready for work. By the time I finally get in my car and start driving to work, I feel like I've had a nice conversation, but with who? haha. Myself? God? It's like my vocal chords should feel worked, but I open my mouth to sing in my car, and I realize I haven't talked at all. At first this sorta weirded me out, but I'm trying to turn it into a time of prayer, which needs to be more and more founded upon His Word. But sometimes... just letting it flow is nice. I also listened to Francis Chan again. I finally listened to those sermons between him and his wife about Christ-Centered relationships good stuff. I posted it a while back if you're interested. The funny thing is he was like women complain about submitting, but guys have to be like Jesus, and he's like ya and that's easier haha. God bless that man. Love his humor and his truth and passion.

Stay strong buckos. If you're not strong, be encouraged by God.