Weirdness

Sometimes, want a person needs to hear is that they haven't screwed up completely. Maybe it's from someone who's not in the best state, but still... it touched me a lot. And reminds me of God's grace, but also love from friends. Ideally... I really believe that only God's opinion of who you are should matter and really only that matters. But that encouragement from a friend can really make a difference. Man... I'm a terrible person haha, but at least... some good things have come out. Praise be to God.

Work was super chill today, but I had to say goodbye to a friend. I think it's finally hitting me. I'm... a graduate. My friends really are scattered. I thought I would feel it in the Fall, but it's hitting me now. Why Fall? Well cause people always scatter for Summer Vacation, but man. Pretty sad. On the flip side, I forced myself to hang out with people today, which was nice.

God's... been gracious and helping me to regain perspective. Helping to me really come back to Him. I've been going through music on my ipod that I normally don't listen to.

Getting Into You- Relient K
This song man... haha. "I love you and that's what you, are getting yourself into." Sick line. It really hit me haha.

I feel like I'm on this weird cycle, learn more about myself, hate myself, remember God's love. Slowly come back, and then learn more haha. Repeat... but each time coming back to God is sweeter.

On another note... I had to fix my dryer today, once again feeling like a man. And improvising cause I didn't have a tool to turn the screw. Stupid landlord was like you can take care of it and hung up on me, but I did. At least I think so. We'll find out when I do my laundry. Also... I learned so much about Gmail cause of work, and applying it to my gmail now. Yes there are plenty of master's that I know already, but I never really cared... but now I'm realizing how organization makes a difference. Humbled I am.