Old Friend

Saw someone, I haven't really seen since I moved out aka the MC. Weird. Memories... nostalgia. But it's over lol.

"I wish I could photoshop the scars off"
Macklemore

Dang... yes and no my friend. Ultimately no, but there always instances of yes, I wish I could.

I've decided to find an element that I long since said goodbye to that only manifests itself in rare moments. Childlike joy. I isolated it a long time ago, and in my pursuit to grow up and get smarter etc., I killed it. But now begins the journey to find it again. I think it will be fun though.

Today, I went on a spontaneous trip to Humpback. I sped there to cath the sunset, and barely got it. I flew up that mountain man... and it was beautiful up there. Downside... hiking in the dark freaking sucks especially at the top. It was exhilarating but scary cause I didn't want to damage my camera. I also had black and white film in my camera... dummy. But I will do this trip again. One of the few things I have confidence in, my center of gravity. If I fall I can cushion it, if I lose my footing I can figure out a way to re-balance myself. But ya, and then I drove to skyline... and dude go there during sunset, eat dinner with significant other, see stars. Perfect date lol. If you steal this from me, you can at least me know you did. But it's so beautiful. If I had a tripod, and a nice ND filter... money landscape shot.

But ya... new journey of life. Learn, develop, change, but ultimately express joy. And where does this joy come from? Why Christ of course because He loves me. And hopefully... I'll learn to love myself. Let's be real guys being depressed and stuff sucks.

Random: I said JubileeProject is better than Wongfu. Or at least I think I did. Saw some Wongfu... my bad guys. If you guys just did more charity work it'd be cooler, but so talented.

More random: Driving fast on that skyline drive is money... feeling the swerve, the pit of your stomach sinking. Knowing that if you crew up this turn it's gg (well I'm not going that fast), it's so exhilarating. And you get lost in the turns and the trees and the scenery. Always enjoyable.