Dang....

Read this thing about relationships, and they always bring up are you happy with yourself.

And.... drumrolll. I'm not. Haha. I'm utterly dissatisfied, disappointed, angry and sad. Loving oneself is the hardest thing for me. Depressing and random I know. I think work is getting to me, although it's starting to get better because I'm getting used to things. I have a strong feeling it's only going to get really hard from here on out though. Yay... gotta earn that moneyz. But ya... I think I've changed for better and worse lately. God willing... it will get better though. I've learned a lot about myself... but at the same time what it means to care for others. No I'm not good at it, but I'm learning.

I just wish I could learn things the first time. It takes multiple tries for me to finally get things together... sigh. I'm stupid.

On a completely different note, I watched Cloud Atlas. Yes it's got some innaprop parts. But overall, a well made movie. Tries a little too hard, but I have to admit that I was sucked in. Complete heresy, but... it was beautiful. Things built up, things resolved, tensions displayed. It just felt very... human. I recommend it. I also Jack Reacher a couple days ago, don't recommend that. Twas nothing special at all.

I took some pics on my lunch break today, nothing groundbreaking, but it's still fun. It's one of the few highlights of my day. I'm so exhausted everyday though. I changed my set up in my room to block more light, and hopefully that will help.

On another completely different note, my brother fractured his arm. Please pray for him, and I shall endeavor to do the same. That is all. Too tired for deepness. Peace.