Praise

Praise is such an interesting thing.

Do we need all the instruments that we have, but do they help? Yes. Are we forcing an feeling, or we aiding people touch and listen to God? Do we fake things or do we help lead genuine things? What is necessary, and what isn't necessary?

Old school vs. new school? How do you keep up with new songs/is it always worth constantly finding new songs? Styles of songs vs. other styles? Male vs. female vocal? Key selection? Why does this song sound so much like this song? Why is there a Christian worship model that people follow? Does cool instruments or effects equal a better song?

We (by we Christians) argue about nit-picky things when it comes to praise. How much is necessary? Sometimes I think it's important, sometimes I think we over think it. I guess part of the reason this comes up, is the new Hillsong CD which is getting a lot of good reviews.

Hillsong is mad talented can't deny it. I feel like for worship teams at churches, putting out a CD is like a testament of their prowess almost. Maybe that's just my subjective thinking, and I mean if I was talented enough to be a worship leader, I'd want to create a CD haha. But even in that thinking, I feel like there's flaws. There is no level of worship leader, there is only do you worship God or not. Why do I focus so much on instrumentation, or this could be mixed better, or look they are slowing down too much, or other little things.  In the end... what matters is God.

So yes I enjoy great musicians and everything, too much. What I need to focus more on is God. Honestly, the first thing I notice is how good is the praise team. What could be done better or differently? But who cares what I think. Who cares if they act like some other worship leader or if they act completely differently, if God is praised does it matter? Yet, it does matter to me sadly.

I think because I didn't do that much work today, and soccer ended with our loss, I'm in a thoughtful mood. I want to be wrapped in thoughts, sit next to a fire, and lose myself in it. Completely lose myself in that ethereal quality that a fire has. Maybe even listen to music and just flow. Haha I sound like a druggie or something...

On another note. I had an interview today, not really thinking much of it cause I don't think I made an impression. But still hopeful. I also got a first round interview for TFA. :) Basically I'm down to 3 places right now, and even if I get them I might still go to the Philippines... who knows. Regardless... I'm constantly reminded how lonely I'm going to be in the future. Lol. I have... I dunno just this feeling of isolation, but then again I'm never alone with Christ. What else do I need? Why long for it? Still have that deep thought written down from class readings, but I'll share that another day. I want to sleep at a reasonable time for once lol.