Sermon

How Should a Reformed Pastor Be Charismatic
Ya ya ya, it says pastor in the title, but it applies to everyone.
A couple good and powerful reminders:
Have to want the Spirit of the Lord more than anything else. I'm definitely guilty of this, where I want to see people show up, and even though I know better I get disappointed, case in point Urbana team sharing.  But that's not the point.
Neglecting the spiritual component is not an option, and nor should we shy away from it.  But we do not pursue fanaticism either.
You can't reason away the spiritual.
Pragmatism has it's place, but do I elevate it to a place that is solely God's domain?

And several more.
Honestly, it was a good sermon.  I'm trying to restructure what I do for fun now.  I won't say no to burning like 10-15 minutes on some mindless game, or maybe some more to watch a show or something.  But I want to use more of my free time for reading, and listening to sermons.  I used to do it just cause it was a good thing to do, and I would check it off.  But... I want to change my attitude towards these things where I long for it.  Even now, if I don't read some blog posts everyday I feel weird or even spend some time in the Bible.

But... behind this needs to be a lot of prayer.  A lot of prayer, something I've neglected and struggled with.  So much prayer, that I can't help but be consumed by it, a hunger for God.  A desire to be touched... a desire to flow with Him.

The pastor in the sermon talks about spiritual callings and how they aren't an option, they are expected, and I wonder if I just decided to do missions later on in my life just cause I want to or because God wills it.

That being said, I finally got an interview... 3rd one, finally haha.  So guess I'll shave.  Got rejected from Epic which made me sad, but we'll see.  Honestly Philippines sounds really good to me... like really good.  But we'll see.  I guess better to have options and think things through, but ultimately I want God to guide me.... or do I?  Lol. Yes of course on some level I do, but completely surrendering, well that's what prayer is for haha.  Asking for the Spirit to do what I can't do.  But ya, recap try to make listening to sermons and reading good Christian books as something I do for fun and not just for learning, something I truly desire.  Pray more.  And I think instead of trying to reread the Bible again (which I should), I'm just going to reread a book again and again. I'm feeling... Romans.  Yes, I'm happier than yesterday because my exams are over for now, no they didn't go as well as I'd hoped but whatevs.

Btw, talk to Mr. I and ask him about the good news haha.