Child of Divorce, Child of God

For the first time in my entire life, I read a book about being a child of divorced parents.

Funny thing is I picked this book up cause it was like a dollar bargain at the IVP bookstore over at Urbana... but it's scary.

I got goosebumps reading this book, I shed tears, I repented, and I blew threw it all.  Because it was so true...

The book is called Child of Divorce, Child of God by Kristine Steakley, and like I said it's uncanny.

So much of it described me... from the bigger things like problems in our relationships with God and others, to even simple fears we have (like the author and I share this same fear... of someone breaking in and murdering and as such we devise escape plans think of weapons nearby etc.  Sounds dumb.. but it's true).  But I don't know if any of you can understand but this book... is truly a gift from God.  Something I picked up on a whim, but has allowed me to admit things that I have not been able to admit.  Allowed me to face things, that I thought were only my problems.  There is a feeling of solidarity, and some peace.  And the author does a good job of keeping the focus on healing from God.

If you know someone divorced... make them read this book.  Please.  I'm going to reread it several times because I blew through it so quickly.  So many things applied.  So many things resonated.  So many things were true.

Of course this doesn't excuse my sins.  Not all, but it helps me to rethink how to address them.  I have many to atone for... but this book is like gift of God.  I already said that but I can't stress it enough.

I've always been envious of families with both parents... envious of so many things.  Afraid of so many things, and God, through His Grace, has allowed me to see some of these things in the past couple days.  But this book... is incredible.  So many things are similar.  So many things... like I don't know how to express this.  People before me have suffered in so many similar ways, and this book is a testament of hope.  This book... is incredible.  Of course thanks be to God.

Truly God is gracious... crazy.

Still got to work out a lot of things, and being changed by God is a lifelong process, but I guess book helps provide so much hope, through quotes, verses, interviews with other people, etc.  If you want to know me... you can read this book haha.  Honestly, it's scary how insightful it is.  Sleep well people.  I shall be rereading this over the next couple days.