I've always wanted people to think well of me. I've talked about this before, so I won't dwell on it too much. But I've always wanted people to perceive as a good and holy guy. haha. But I'm a sinner.
A good man told me numerous things. One of which is this, do we want to be the holy man that people perceive of us or do we desire to be the holy man of God? A deep and powerful question because I know what I wanted and still want, but I know what I truly need and should desire.
He also shared something I think incredibly profound. When Peter denounced Jesus 3 times, and was finally confronted with his sins when the rooster crowed, he went out and wept bitterly in repentance. When Paul formerly Saul was confronted with his sin, I'm sure he was overwhelmed as well. But often we overlook this or at least I have and just think about the greater things these people have done because they are great (of course because of God).
But when we sin and we despair or are grieved by the sheer amount of sin we identify (and we can't even identify it all), we forget that so did these men. But God worked within them. Despair, sadness all this is normal and right, but shall we fix our eyes to Jesus or eternally focus on our shame.
I keep on shifting on pronouns because I don't know which to use. He shared me this view point, but I use we and I because I now hold it too... but all credit to him who shall remain unnamed. But that's powerful... that's truth. God's grace goes deeper still, a truth that I too easily forget.
Psalm 51, I think will be the first chapter I attempt to memorize and shall be what I attempt to memorize next after Galatians 2:20.
Also another song, "You Alone Can Rescue" Matt Redman.
Tomorrow shall be a productive day hopefully, unlike today. And my first week of classes is over cause no Friday classes.... weird. Last first week of undergrad...
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